kramcool
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Re: Update on my son who has cancer
My friend,don't worry,if a little weed every now and then makes you feel better.
It probably just makes the memories a little better,when they come flooding in.
I am sure that the memories you have of Micheal are pleasant,but i bet they still hurt some times?
Remember what Bob said......
(I love the pics and in this video)Sit back relax and smile!
»www.youtube.com/watch?v=KAJbFrKC91I
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kasparov33
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thank you so much. i dont beat myself up because that will only make things worse. at first there were all the usual questions like what if we did something different or had did this or that but everytime my wifre or i did that i could hear my son say mom and dad you did a great job and i had all that i needed. my wife and i are going to the childrens hospital in charlotte sometime in the next 2 months on a friday to help out in the oncology wing and maybe we can make some child that has cancer feel better even if only for a day and talk to the parents and hopefully help them to feel better too. i can honestly say that my life has been forever changed and anyone that i can help in my life to feel better or whatever i can do at that time to help i will never pass the chance up. have a good one all. |
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Edge1
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said by Warzau  :That actually brought a tear to my eye. It is the same night time routine, I have with my girls. I would say go ahead and try anything that will help with the pain. In the same respect don't abuse yourself or beat yourself up. You know what I'm sure your son would say how proud he is of you right now. Stay strong. I have the same routine with my girls. Brought a tear to my eye too. Hang tough. |
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jwersan
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said by kasparov33 : i can honestly say that my life has been forever changed and anyone that i can help in my life to feel better or whatever i can do at that time to help i will never pass the chance up. have a good one all. I'm glad to see you and your wife are moving forward after this tragic point in your life.
I wish I could say the same for my sister, she lost her oldest son to Leukemia several years ago, he was in his early 20's and had been through two rounds of chemo and a bone marrow transplant.
She was on medication shortly after his death to help her cope, but her Dr still has her on medication and sees no issue continuing them going forward. My sister goes to work several days a week, comes home and sleeps, that is her entire routine. Occasionally she will pop some meds and drag herself to a family gathering or go to Atlantic city to escape his birthday or the date he passed.
To me she is clinically depressed, but this seems to escape her Dr.
I am glad to see you are not using drugs as a crutch, and are moving forward, trust me on this, your son would be proud of you for the way you are handling this.
Good luck!
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Reign
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I lost a brother to cancer... I was at the point of no return after it happend... some how I managed to regroup myself and continue to live life..
Just remember to think positive.
Edit: Just saw your post... Im very sorry to hear the bad news.. I was expecting a full recovery...
There is alot more I can say.. |
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Kardinal
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Please continue to post on your life and how you are coping; it's an inspiration of working through tragedy and continuing to live rather than closing down and becoming a shell.
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All of us do time in the gutter, dreamers turn to look at the cars -- Peart/Lee/Lifeson
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jimmay76
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East Providence, RI | reply to kasparov33
Hey K33
I thought i had such a tough night with the kids
Now i'm bawling my eyes out, again, for your loss, because why are we stressing about such bs
Thanks for keeping us posted
pm anytime im on everyday
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kasparov33
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was going to go metal detecting this afternoon folks but it was 98 on the front porch this afternoon so i said no go. the summer seems to get here earlier each year and my poor grass is starting to resemble sagebrush. i hit what i think is a dime in my back yard the other day and when i tried to dig it was like trying to get through concrete so i said i will get it later. sure wish we could get about 2 days worth of good soaking rain cause if not its going to get very bad again here this summer. the small garden i planted can be watered with the well we have so thats good. is it hot yet where all of you live? chime in and let us know what the temps are at your ranch. later all |
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| In Southern Cal, its starting to get pretty hot. Not 98, but its in the 70s daily and creeping towards the 80s. Its usually 80s around this time of year, so the 70ish temp is pretty nice.
You mentioned metal detecting. What would you say is the coolest/best/most valuable thing you found so far with the metal detecting? |
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kasparov33
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found some pennies from 1911. 1916 and also 1919. havent had a lot of time to go but there are some very old homes around here that i am going to go to when the weather permits and hopefully i will find some silver coins. a nice diamond ring withy a few carats wouldnt be bad either. i took some pics of me and my detecting machines and also have some pics of my son. if someone would message me and tell me how to post them that would be great and i will have them posted by tonight. later all and stay out of the heat. its going to be 99 here today and tomorrow. |
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AtlGuy
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Hi kasparov33, I just read this thread and wanted to send my sincere sympathies regarding your son. How very sad to read.
As far as uploading pics, when you type a message click the Preview/Attach button, then you you should see a +upload attachments button under your screen name. From there, browse to where the pictures are saved on your computer. I hope that helps. |
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kasparov33
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here is a pic of my son. this was taken around october of 2007. the blue on his skin is where the doctors marked him for the radiation. he was one hell of a fighter and never really complained about much at all. i can only dream of having his courage and stamina. later all |
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Bada Bing
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Bless you and your family. You are stronger than I could ever be. I can not imagine the pain you went though. Such an innocent life taken away. Take care.
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Kardinal
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said by kasparov33 :i can only dream of having his courage and stamina. I reckon you already do.
You've posted quite a bit of the past few months of your life in this thread and that itself takes quite a bit of courage and strength to do. You've shared your hardship with us and I, for one, can see the strength within you that it has taken to do this and to speak of the pain and sorrow you have been through. I hope that the words of the posters here have been a help to you as you have been an inspiration and example of strength to us.
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kasparov33
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just wanted to stop in and say hello to all. the last few months have been very difficult but myself and my wife and daughter are doing ok. reading back over a lot of the posts you folks posted meant a lot to me. again thank you all for taking the time to help out someone you dont even know. here in the next few days i am going to go through my sons closet and find some of his old toys that are still good and give them to some other children so that they may have fun with them. i know that my son would want me to do that instead of just letting them set there. i think about him every day and try to lead my life in a way that would make him proud. i have found a forum for parents with children that have his type of cancer and some of the parents just recently found out that their child has the cancer. hopefully i can answer some of their questions and help them with questions that they may have and help to make their journey a little easier if i can. well i hope you all have a great day but i am packing my metal detector and going hunting for coins for a few hours. i have found some nice finds in recent months and will post some pics hopefully soon. later all |
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Warzau
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clubs: | Im glad you are coping with this and in turn helping others who are now going through the same. Good luck and we wait for you finds  |
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kramcool
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I think this should be a sticky!
Since your first post about Micheal we have all hoped,prayed and sadly cried with you and your family.We will always be interested in the living legacy that Michale has left us!!
Wow it has been over 6 months already.
It is because of Micheal that we(a group of cyber-strangers)became closer.......became involved!
»www.youtube.com/watch?v=dHm1el3Sze8
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
God Bless and keep on keeping on!!
-Kram(Mark)
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pasarela
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Belleville, NJ
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My Father had cancer, he had surgery, maybe another type of cancer, he is OK now.
I am so sorry, My prayers go to your son, He is proud of what you & all your family did for him.
God Bless him!
JC. |
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onebadmofo
Repost These Nuts In Your Mouth.
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Hey Kasp, You're taking all the steps in the right direction. Donating some toys away that were his to other kids who need them, helping other parents who have kids that have cancer.
I'm not sure if anyone has asked this but, have you thought of having any other kids? And not to mean that as a "replacement" for your son. Cause that's impossible. But as a start on a new path in life, so-to-speak.
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