Tiffy in January 1999 |
Canon PowerShot SX10 IS 5mm 1/500th F5.6 ISO80
Tiffy enjoying snow in 2010 |
February 2012 |
on Wednesday, March 21, I said goodbye to Tiffany/Tiffy, my 4 legged friend of 13.5 years... Back then, a now ex-wife said she wanted a dog, a Yorkie.... while I wasn't crazy about the idea, we found and bought her. I fed, played with, card for and walked her. When I ended that marriage in 2007, she moved to a place where she couldn't have a dog, so Tiffy stayed with me.
Before they injected her, I learned that she had lost more weight. She used to weigh right around 11.2 to 10.5 pounds.... about 1.5 years ago when she was diagnosed with the kidney damage, she was down to 9.... 1 week ago, when she went in for her rabies shot, she was 7.2... today, she weighed just 6.5 pounds.
several tears were shed, and I let out a sob or two... but when I got home, I headed out on my 4 mile walk, while wearing an iPod. during the walk, I remembered how good she was to me, and how much I tried to show her I cared.
By the 30 minutes/2 mile point, halfway through the walk, I was fine. Death is a part of life. Haven't really been sad about it other than that first 30 minutes. Sadness is the wrong attitude, I have been pretty reflective, thinking about all kinds of things that have happened in my life.... some nice, some weird, but all things considered, I guess I can't complain..
to be perfectly honest, it bothered me a whole lot more saying goodbye to the dog I didn't really want, than being bedside as my own Mother took her last breaths....